Wishing I was looking from the other side...

Almost everyone in this world (well at least the world im living in now) knows what they want in life. Their answers are relatively simple, a degree, a job, a high salary, find someone they love, marry and have kids. Most people ahve their lives mapped out when they reach university and i.. am a man who despite his best efforts has not been able to see through the problem. I have not planned my life. I always tell myself the more i plan, the more problems i see will arise, so i refuse to plan. But i once read that "if you fail to plan then your planning to fail." true? possibly.

I was never the nice guy kind. I had always seen myself as a lazy fucking bastard who cant keep his mouth shut! but i also tell myself that i have to change. I am surrounded by hypocrites. I dont know why i blurted that out. Most people that are around me try to potray something about themselves that in reality isnt really them. Actors in the stage of life. hypocrites.

Who should i believe. My instinct has proven me wrong a few times. So what should i do. Despite my best efforts people has not acknowledge what i can do but prefer to focus on what i cannot do. Then there is no quality, there is no fairness....

Life is nver fair..... so stop asking it to be....